Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Wow, its been a long time. Sorry All

I am sure you all have missed hearing from me :)  I am sorry for the absence from my blog, but we have been busy around the Braem house. 

I have been adjusting well to my new diet, learning what I can and can not eat.  It has taken some time to figure out some of the foods that you would not think to be an issue that were bothering Emily.  We had got to the point where Emily had been happy and having normal stools for a little over a week when her symptoms returned full force, after about a weeks time, many calls to our pediatrician and an ER visit I figured out it was the orange juice I was drinking every morning that she was reacting to.  Who would have though someone would be allergic to orange juice.  Since then she had a reaction to citrus flavored antibiotic, so I am staying away from citrus in general now :)  For now her allergy list includes: Dairy, Soy, Almonds, and Orange/Citrus.  We expect her to grow out of all of theses at some point (usually shortly after a year old).  I am a pro at reading food labels and looking for hidden sources of dairy mainly.  I have found many many foods that I love are still safe to eat and I really just eat about the same thing every day.  I am very happy though that we have got to the root of all her health problems and that I am still able to breastfeed her. 

Emily sure has changed since the diet change!  She is like a new baby now that all her tummy pains are gone.  Emily is just over seven months now and is making up for some lost time.  She was at the doctor last week for an ear infection and she was almost 14 lbs (13lbs 12oz)!  She rolls both ways very well, talks up a storm, sits without support and recently has started to get up on her hands and knees - she has no clue what to do next but you can tell she really wants to move!  Once she gets crawling figured out I really don't think we will be able to stop her you can just see it in her eyes how much she wants to be on the go :)  Her little personality has really started to come out as well, and she is one spunky gal!  I say that what she lacks in size she makes up for in personality :)  She still likes to be the center of attention (that has never changed) and will fake cough to get all eyes on her (still).  She also thinks she is funny, she will make a face or sound and then laugh at her self.  She looks at us with this look of "I'm so funny, right?".   When I am driving, she is in the back just talking away and laughing at herself!  She has started to imitate us with little things like sounds, faces, and simple motions (like patting an object).  She LOVES for you to clap at her after she has accomplished something!  She is also getting her two bottom teeth in. 

She has started eating solids once a day, she is doing fruits and veggies and LOVES her food :)  She is learning to use a sippy cup and has started some little baby puffs (finger food) also.  She is very interested in what Paul and I are eating and tries to steer our food to her mouth! 

She will now sleep for 6 hrs at night!  This is AMAZING!!!!!  She has also graduated to her crib!  She has her last feeding around 8-9pm and then goes down to bed after nursing and reading a book (between 9-10) she will wake between 12-2am sometimes she nurses again but has recently been able to fall  back asleep on her own without eating.  She finally wakes up for the day around 6-8am.  Now that we are on some kind of routine for the night, I am working on naps!  It has been totally hit or miss so far but most days she takes a short am nap (usually while nursing) and then an afternoon nap around noon for about an hour. 

I am finally able to get some things done around the house now that she will actually play on the floor, and takes some kind of nap.  Our life before was her screaming inconsolably almost every day from 11am-5pm and waking up every 1-2 hrs at night and having to hold my hand to fall asleep for the short time that she did.  She had to be held all day everyday and only wanted her mom.  And when she was not screaming she was still fussy.  I am so so so very grateful that we have figured out what was wrong and she is a happy healthy baby now.  It makes me cry just thinking about it, I love her so much. 

Well I will end this post now, if you are still reading thanks :)  I will try to post more often now :)

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

My Last Drink...

...Of Milk!

My world was turned upside down this afternoon.  As you all know Emily is SMALL, and fussy and well she has never really had a "normal" breast milk stool.  I have wondered for a few months now if this was all related and something more was going on.  With a nursing background I tend to worry about alot of stuff I probably don't need to and over think things sometimes.  I worry she does not get enough hind breast milk, I worry about one of her eyes, and a whole list of things...I often tell Paul things like oh Em waves around her left arm more, I wonder if it is more dominant OR she is waving it around because she has less control over it and it is not as strong and can not properly use it!  Paul just answers "I'm not concerned" and that is usually enough to bring me back to reality :).  So I have wondered if she had a milk protein allergy because of some of the things going on, but the main symptom (bloody stools) she was without so I just told myself I was over thinking things and she was fine. 

This morning she had a stool that was more mucous and had some flecks of what looked like blood in it, and the same with the second stool, and the third was mostly mucous and some stool but no visible blood.  I brought her into out pediatrician.  She was diagnosed to have a milk protein allergy based on her symptoms of being fussy, and low weight, and they did a test in the office to look for blood in the stool and it was positive.  It is very uncommon for babies to have occult (hidden) blood in their stools with this condition.  But if you know Emily you know she is not common :)   So to explain her condition quickly, basically she is allergic to the protein in milk and unable to break it down, this irritates the GI tract (the irritation causes the bloody stools).  We were told she has had this condition since day one. 

On a brighter note, this is something that can be treated.  And in the big picture it is not the end of the world.  It is something that can be treated.  Emily will need a special formula, or I eliminate all Dairy, Soy, Whey, and Casein from my diet.  When first presented with this option I thought I could never do that and felt selfish for just wanting to give up on breastfeeding.  After visiting our local natural food store I found many options and I really think it will be possible to continue breastfeeding.  My plan currently is to give Emily formula to get her feeling better as soon as possible and for me to adopt this new diet and pump milk and dump it until I am comfortable with the diet and feel like it is safe for Emily to nurse again.  I plan on this taking about a week. 

I feel horrible for saying/complaining at times that she is a fussy baby, I now know she has been in PAIN.  It explains why she does not sleep well, she is just uncomfortable ALL THE TIME.  And if those things don't make me feel like the worlds worst mom her weight was checked today and she really has not gained anything since her 4 month well child visit.  She has only gained one pound in two months.  And I feel so so so very bad that I did not realize that. 

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Big attitude, little girl

I have been meaning to share some of the true colors of Emily for some time now, but it never seemed to fit with any other post.  So I will devote a whole post to it :) 

Oh where do I begin...Let me start by saying how much I LOVE my little girl.  I would not want to change anything and I really do look forward to seeing how this personality of hers develops. 

I do not know how to describe Emily best, but she is a stubborn, strong willed, attention seeking, little princess. 

She chooses not to sleep during the day (unless she is being held) and just recently started sleeping for about 4 hours at night.  To fall asleep at night she has to hold my hand.  She refuses to sleep in any sort of bed and sleeps in a little sleep chair/bassinet next to our bed.  During the day I have tried to nurse her to sleep, use the swing, and many many other things.  But she just will not sleep.  Today I put her in the swing, gave her her paci, and let her hold onto me.  I would slip my hand out and get half way across the room before she would start to scream.  And this is no try and let her cry it out crying...it is full blown screaming with huge tears and trouble catching her breath.  She goes from happy to pout lip to this scream, we have no escalation from fussy to crying to screaming in this house.  Her only indication is the lip and then you have about 20 seconds to make her world right or you are in for it. 

Emily will fake cough to get your attention, that pretty much sums it all up.  This started when she was about 2 months old (maybe a bit younger).  If you are holding her (if she allows that) and you are not looking right at her or talking to her she starts to fake cough to get your attention.  When this works she smiles at you and coos.  She loves to get her way.  She is still VERY picky with who can hold her and for how long.  She will be just fine with someone and then that lip comes out at random times.  Once back with Mommy she is fine. 

If you take something away from her, she lets out a little yell.  She does this same sound when the cats walk away from her or my parents dog is not within reach.  She will also do this sound when I take a little too long to get ready for her to nurse.  She will take a few big gulps to wet her mouth and then pull away look right at me and do a yell/grunt sound just so that I know she is not pleased with the service she is getting. 

I have been holding her while she has been sleeping for about 30 min.  She woke half way through this and I put her in her jumperoo (she LOVES it) but she just now started to "cough" at me...I look every time what if she really was having trouble, and each time she smiles at me and puts her arms up to be picked up... I do after the third time since I can see the lip...she is now happy, throwing everything off my desk...the jumperoo is still "singing" and she looks over at it often, I know she is missing the fun but she will not admit it...

Remember this is a spunky little 12lb almost 6 mo old girl...

Long overdue :)

Well I have been meaning to post something about our transition to cloth diapers for some time, and well I just have not had time :)  A little over a month ago I bought our first cloth diaper, and I LOVE them! 

Paul had always wanted to do cloth from before Emily was even here, but his idea of cloth was the old pre folds with pins and I did not know if I was up for that.  I had been interested in doing cloth, we already do cloth napkins, use rags and sponges instead of paper towels when we can, cloth sandwich/snack bags ( www.snacktaxi.com/ )and when I remember my reusable bags I bring those to the grocery store as well.  After spending years educating the youth about ways to help the environment as a wildlife educator in the summers at a camp I really do try to make a conscious decision about things that effect my carbon foot print.  And I am proud to say I believe Paul and I have a smaller one than most households.  We recycle everything we can and only have one trash can of garbage every other week. 

Well when disposable diapers entered our lives our trash doubled! That means we were adding about 30-40 gallons of diapers to the landfill every WEEK!  And that is just our house, imagine all the little kids you see around, and think how that adds up.  Now you have to remember that was a newborn so they are changed more often and Emily has very sensitive skin so I changed her even more frequently.  So we may of had a few more diapers than some, but not much. 

I had seen these "fancy" cloth diapers working as a nurse, and was very interested in using them but Paul and I could not come to agreement, see these "fancy" cloth are about $20 per diaper and the up front cost was holding us back.  But when I figured the cost of prefolds and covers you are not saving much.  While we discussed it (for many months) Amanda (my sister) started the transition to cloth using these "fancy" diapers.  Paul said see how your sister likes them in a few months.  And I think we all know how the story ends. 

Well now our stash of cloth is up to 11 diapers, that does not seem like many and I have to do laundry alot, but it has already decreased the amount of disposable diapers by at least half.  We do disposable over night and while the diapers are being washed and dried.  In the near future with our slowly growing supply of cloth I should be able to do cloth full time with needing to wash daily.  I think with 4 or 5 more I would be able to get by with daily laundry. 

Besides the environmental benefits I have noticed some other pluses as well.  Emily had a chronic red bottom and an eczema patch, that has all cleared since the switch.  No pre rinsing with breastfeeding, just toss them in the wash and they clean up nice.  I do not have a single stained diaper!  And who does not love a cute little cloth diaper bottom! 

Thursday, February 24, 2011

Just Pictures

Sitting up all by herself, and happy about being able to do so!
 Sitting and sputtering :)
 Yes another bath picture!  Emily LOVES bath time, and Paul got out a rubber ducky for the first time last weekend and she thought that was great fun to have a toy in the bath :) 
 You have to be fast to get a Tummy time picture these days, she rolls over as soon as she can to get off her tummy. 
 Mid scream, it is so fun to sit up and even more fun to sit up and scream at the same time!  I know you would not believe me if I told you she had been a very very unhappy baby for a few hours about 5 min prior to this picture...
 FEET!!  Emily has found a new "toy"  She loves to be naked and play with her feet and suck on her toes...most evenings she is fussy and last night she was very fussy, I got her undressed and layed her on the bed and this was the result.  Instant happy baby!

5 Months Already

A big thank you to Paul first for making it possible for me to spend a weekend in Dubuque, IA with my friends scrapbooking at our annual Cabin Fever retreat.  I met the girls in Dubuque last Friday night, and returned home Sunday afternoon.  This is an annual retreat that I have been going to for three years now, it is full of talking, eating, oh yeah and scrapbooking.  It is hosted by a Creative Memories consultant that one of my friends knows.  It is so much fun, and I did not know if I would be able to attend this year so I was very excited when it all worked out.  Paul and Emily spent  the weekend together (I don't know if Emily was totally thrilled about being away from me and having to take a bottle), with some help from my parents.  I had so much fun, but missed them both.  It is nice to be back home after much needed girl time! 

Emily is 5 months old now, I don't know where the time has gone!  She is getting so big, and doing new things every day.  This is a really fun age. 

Emily can roll over from tummy to back, and when on her back she can get up onto her sides but no back to tummy rolling yet.  She does it consistently now and rolls over pretty quick after being put on her tummy, she never really liked tummy time :)  Emily will sit very well with support and will sit by herself well for about 30-60 seconds before falling over.  She has learned to scream!  And she loves that she can be that loud, some afternoons all she does is scream and scream...She loves to spit and sputter and has found her feet as well.  Everything goes into her mouth these days including her toes!  She is playing with toys more and more and will transfer them from hand to hand and up to her mouth.  She is getting really good at manging her pacifier (still one of her favorite things) she will take it out and play with it and put it back in her mouth. 

She just started to sleep at night without being swaddled, but still in her sleep chair.  She will sleep for 3-4 hrs. in a stretch.  I try every few nights to put her in her pack n play, but she does not want anything to do with it.  I hope after her room is all ready and her crib is up, she will like it enough to sleep in it :)  We still need the swing some nights, otherwise nobody would be sleeping.

Emily gets excited when she sees certain things during the day, sometimes I have no idea what she found so entertaining and I just wish I could know what she was thinking.   She really likes the cats these days as well.  We have two cats, one shy and timid cat and one outgoing, loud, obnoxious cat.  I was worried about how they would adjust to her but they are doing great.  We just started letting them be around her and our outgoing cat has no problem with her.  He will let her pull his fur, whiskers, ears, and tail.  He just comes back for more and more Emily "love".  The other cat will tolerate her but as soon as she starts loving him too much he is gone...She is still very well supervised when around the cats, because they are cats and I will never fully trust them. 

Here are some recent pictures to share. 

Well I am unable to post pictures at this time, usually I am able to just insert an image and it is not letting me.  I will make a call to my sister who as most of you know is much better about blogging than I am and see what I need to do....

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Quick note and Pics :)

Today we are snowed in, we have had some other large snow falls this winter but this one tops them all.  It started Monday and covered the ground with about 3 inches of snow, then took a little break until starting back up again Tuesday (yesterday) early afternoon and finally stopped late this morning.  I don't know what the official snow fall amount is but it is over 12 inches.  And the main issue is all the drifting snow, many roads are closed along with most businesses and schools.  Paul and I are enjoying the snow day together and had a list of things we wanted to get done, painting trim and putting together Emily's crib along with some other little things around the house but we have done none of those things and instead are all cozy on the couch watching TV/movies on netflix together!  I am glad that we have a warm home and still have power, many others that were hit by the same storm do not have power and it is VERY cold out. 

Emily and I continue to enjoy most everyday together and recently we made Valentines one day and tried to take some pics to put with her card, they are cute but not what I envisioned...  We tried rice cereal for the first time (and has had it once since), which Emily really likes.  I have had more photography clients and have been lucky to be able to schedule them so Paul went late to work or came home early or on the weekend.  But my sister is available if needed :) 

All these pics are from the last few weeks, Emily is 3-4 months in them.  She is growing so much, and really starting to show her personality over the last few weeks.  My sister calls her a little diva, and as much as I don't want to admit it - I think maybe she is.  I just say she is opinionated :)  Just this morning though I started to change my mind...wondering can she already be manipulating me??  She was laying on our bed, I was sitting and watching the news.  She was playing with a rattle in her hand and would try to get my attention back only on her every once in awhile, while playing she hit herself in the head - not hard she is only 4 months.  She was fine, I don't even know if she realized exactly what she did.  But I said to her "oh no, you are ok"  in a calm way, just to reassure her that it was fine because she was looking at me with a puzzled look on her face.  Once she realized that she did in fact do something that bottom lip came out (about 30-45 sec. after the incident) so far and her face got all sad looking and she looked like she was going to scream, i picked her right up and we avoided any tears because she was all giggles and smiles as soon as I picked her up...What a diva - it really did cross my mind that since she got some reaction, she knew how to get a bigger one and was going for it :) 

Reading with Daddy

Still loving bath time


 Fun in the jumperoo


Rice cereal for the first time :)



Making our Valentines Day cards...and using finger paint for the first time - what fun we had :)


Trying to get a cuteValentines pic to send with our cards...my vision was just not happening but still cute and fun!